The Handprint

I hear them whispering outside my bedroom door. Hear their father whisper “No. Not today. Maybe she’ll be better tomorrow.”  It is the same everyday. I consider going out there.  I think a good mother would do that. Go reassure them, tell them everything is going to be all right and then see to it that everything is all right. I pull the covers back over my head. Maybe tomorrow I will be better.  Maybe tomorrow I can reassure them. Maybe tomorrow I will be able to deal with the disappointment that is written all over their faces. But not today.  Today I wish they … Continue reading The Handprint

Anxious Thoughts

  When my anxious thoughts multiply within me; Your consolations delight my soul.  Psalm 94:19 I’d like to say that I am breezing through this COVID-19 with joy and grace and peace, but alas, that’s not true.  Oh, sometimes, it is.  Maybe even most of the time.  But often, in the wee hours of the morning when sleep has once again evaded me because of this pandemic, my thoughts become anxious and they multiply within me. Thoughts like when God when, why God why and please God tell me how to get through this.  When my brain is filled with … Continue reading Anxious Thoughts

Be Here Now!

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.  Matthew 6:34 I had a dream the other night.  In this dream I was going somewhere and it seemed to be a long way away.  I was tired and had been walking a long time and for whatever reason, I was carrying a heavy backpack. Seemed heavy enough to be filled with rocks but I don’t know what was in it because I never stopped to look.  In the dream, I felt a sense of urgency.  Stopping to look in the … Continue reading Be Here Now!

Betrayed

What about other betrayals?  I felt betrayed by my body when it no longer could perform daily tasks; really betrayed.  It wasn’t easy to come to grips with the fact that this body that has carried me faithfully for so many years was now unable to do so.  I felt betrayed by doctors who medicated me and sent me on my way without really hearing me or seeing me.  Betrayal.  It stinks. People offer words of comfort when one is going through a time of betrayal.  Among the words offered is the statement that Jesus will never leave us. He … Continue reading Betrayed