That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, “Let us go over to the other side.”
Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat.
There were also other boats with him.
A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped.
Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion.
The disciples woke him and said to him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?”
He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!”
Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.
Biopsy, cancer, surgery, disfiguration, medical leave, chemotherapy, radiation, imaging test, lymph nodes, oncologist, mass, tumor, metastasis, pathologist, precancerous, pre-op, etc. The words we have added to our vocabulary are not pleasant words. Not by any means. In fact, these words can strike fear in most people. They certainly did in us. In the midst of the cacophony of noise in my head though was this single, recurring phrase “I’ve got this”. It wasn’t as loud as the other noises, it was strangely soft and quiet and I had to purpose to hear it.
I’ll be honest, all of this took me off-guard, I certainly didn’t see it coming. But God did. It didn’t strike fear in Him like it did me. On the contrary, He confidently whispered to me, “I’ve got this”.
God knows the end from the beginning. He wrote the story of my life, of my family’s life and He knows the way the story ends. Maybe like me, you have wondered, well, if God knew this was coming, why didn’t He stop it? If everything that happens in my life is filtered through His foreknowledge and He allows it, what does that say about an All-Powerful, All-Knowing God that He could stop it but didn’t?
I wrestled with questions like this in times past. Maybe you have too. I don’t have an answer, maybe you don’t either. I suspect though, that much of what causes our diseases and illnesses is related to the toxic world we live in, a world we were charged with taking care of and didn’t. I don’t say this to point fingers, I say this to say that I believe God allows what we allow. Our bodies are paying the price for our failure, corporately, to keep our world safe and clean. Please don’t stone me; this only my opinion. God can’t stop us from polluting our world and our bodies without violating His commitment to free will.
There is a comfort in there; God is so committed to His word that He keeps it even if it might be so much easier to break it. So while He won’t stop us from destroying ourselves along with our world, He does the next best thing. He makes a way for all that is wrong to be righted. He brings life to our deadness, He provides healing and restoration to broken bodies and lives. He offers comfort to those who are going through difficult times. He whispers, “I’ve got this” when the storm is raging and my boat is rocking.
Jesus, You know the storm is raging, You know the reports from the doctors and the diagnosis we don’t really want to hear. I need You to calm our little boat, still the waves and hold us tight. I rest in the assurance You offer – You’ve got this. You’ve got our backs covered, our futures secured, our present moments held tightly in Your loving, healing hands. Thank You, from the bottom of my heart. I love You. Amen.