I am not so sure how properly I set this goal, but I am halfway there. Posting a blog a day for a year has been a stretch for me. Some weeks ago, I had to take a break because pain was too intense for me to sit at the computer and now I am trying to fill in posts on those days I missed.
So what else can I say about where I am right now, six months into this?
I am still dealing with pain.
I am still limited by pain.
I seldom use pain as an excuse for my mood, attitude, behaviors, etc.
I am encouraged by things I have studied and read and sometimes very challenged by things I’ve studied and read.
I still have more questions than answers and that’s good, it keeps me seeking.
I have more good days than bad.
I sleep more nights than I don’t.
I have learned that taking care of me is ok.
I’ve learned that God is a holistic healer and is as interested in my overall health as He is in my physical health.
I have discovered that I am more interested in my overall health than I am in my physical health.
I am relaxing in this process and not feeling like I must/need to rush it.
I am still connected with a local church and involved there.
I have made a new priority list and I am not at the top of it anymore!
My prayer life has grown by leaps and bounds.
I am grateful for this process and whenever my healing comes, I will be grateful for that.
I am learning to set boundaries with other people.
I am learning to delegate things I can’t do anymore.
I think going into this that I had in mind that I would be healed before my year was up. I know I can’t put a time frame on God and I know that what He has done in me in these past six months has more eternal value than just healing my body would have had. I have had to change my expectations from Daily Devotions on Divine Healing to Almost Daily Devotions on Divine Healing and I am ok with that, especially if the other choice would be to just quit. I won’t quit, I will make it to May 28, 2014.
Dear Jesus, what can I say but thank You and humbly come to You and surrender my life, my expectations, my timeline, my plans to You knowing that Your ways are not my ways and Your plans are higher, bigger, greater than I could ever imagine. Use me, use this pain, use this blog in any way You deem best, I ask in Your precious name. Amen.