When my anxious thoughts multiply within me; Your consolations delight my soul. Psalm 94:19
I’d like to say that I am breezing through this chronic pain with joy and grace and peace, but alas, that’s not true. Oh, sometimes, it is. Maybe even most of the time. But often, in the wee hours of the morning when sleep has once again evaded me because of pain, my thoughts become anxious and they multiply within me.
Thoughts like when God when, why God why and please God tell me how to get through this. When my brain is filled with the noise of pain and lack and the frustrations of not being able to do all I think I need to do, I lose sleep and peace. How about you? Ever lost sleep or peace over anxious thoughts that seem to multiply, sometimes exponentially?
In those moments, I have to purpose to “bring every thought captive to the obedience of Christ”. I have to make a conscious effort to think on the character and goodness of God and reflect on His promises. When I am able to do this, I find peace and sometimes drift back to sleep easily. Sometimes, it is a song that consoles me, other times, it might be a Bible verse I have memorized. Sometimes I just start listing the things that are good and right in my life. And I am consoled.
Father, help me to remember that Your consolations delight my soul; that Your word brings me peace and Your promises are Yeah and Amen. I delight in Your word and the peace that it brings me surpasses comprehension. You truly do exceedingly abundantly above all I dare ask or think and I praise You. Thank You for rocking me to sleep on those nights when sleep is evasive. Thank You for being my pathway to peace. Amen.