God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
I don’t know about you but I didn’t get up one day and say “wow, I would really like to be in pain for years”. I didn’t do that and I am sure that whatever you are going through, it wasn’t by your choice. And yet…
Some time ago, God led me through a grief process. At first, I was in denial – believing everyday that today would be it, the last day of the pain. And of course, it wasn’t. Then I grieved over my life that had been redefined by pain, grieved over all the things I could not do anymore, things that had filled my life and my days and I wasn’t prepared to give them up. This led me in and out of anger for quite some time. Anger directed at doctors and myself and even God. When I finally confessed that anger and let God deal with it, then there was the bargaining stage. What if I do this or don’t do that? There was a lot of mental torment in that trying to find the right combination of things I could do or not do to bring about relief. I can write this in one paragraph but this was a year-long process and I moved back and forth between the stages.
Finally, I reached the stage of acceptance. I have come to know that there is nothing I can do to relieve the pain. I can’t change it but by God’s grace I can accept it. For now. Not as a permanent guest because I still believe that by His stripes I am healed. But just for now, I can accept that this is what it is and I can find peace in that. I can see the myriad of good things in my life that pain hasn’t stolen from me and I can rest in the assurance that God is God and He is good and the day of my deliverance is coming on His timetable. How about you? Can you, just for now, find peace in the circumstances you find yourself in and trust the outcome to God?
Lord, You are a great and merciful God and Your compassions fail not. Your faithfulness to me is humbling and fills me with such gratitude. Who am I that You should even take notice of me and yet You do. Minute by minute You are watching over me and providing for me and healing me at my greatest point of need. Help me to accept the things I can not change and rest in Your peace while You work on my behalf. Thank You, thank You, thank You. Amen
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- He Is Faithful (devomom.wordpress.com)