Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you. I Peter 5: 6-7
I just finished a great book called “Teach Us To Sit Still”, written by Tim Parks. The man is a self-proclaimed skeptic about religion and alternative methods of healing, but after living with constant pain for years, he stumbled upon some relief which he shares in this book.
A lot of his relief came from simply giving up the fight against the pain and learning to accept this present moment for what it is. I discovered when I read it how much of my time and energy is spent trying to deny or ignore the pain as opposed to just accepting that it is what it is and finding my peace in God in these present moments. The energy spent is fighting the pain only makes it worse. It adds tension and fear and stress that rob me of joy and peace.
He talks a lot about being at peace with your body which he admits is a lot harder to do than it seems, especially when the body is wracked with pain. I discovered this through his writings; I am not at all at peace with my body. I spend an inordinate amount of time thinking about my body, what I can do to make it better, what have I done to hurt it, etc. Not exactly being at peace. Now I am choosing to practice letting go of my need to rail against the pain and all the unknown concerns that go with it. Not an easy thing to do.
What about you? Do you spend a good deal of your precious now moments wishing away pain or disease or talking about it or feeling sorry for yourself because of it? I know I have.
I have to purpose to let go of the fight. I can by reminding myself that God is for me; He is infinitely involved in the small and large details of my life. Nothing that has happened to me or will happen to me is beyond His knowledge or His ability to take care of. Nothing. I can cast my cares on Him because He cares so much for me. Is it easy? No. I am learning to take one step at a time. To moment by moment recognize when my thoughts become so totally focused on me and my pain and not on Him and His care. In those moments, I speak this verse over and over again as many times as I need to until I am once again, focused on Him. And I have discovered that the pain has lessened when I do.
Father, teach me to be still. To let go of my need for everything to be fixed right now. Help me to cast my cares on You because You care so much for me. When I am fighting against my pain, help me to remember that Jesus took that pain, the fight has been won and I can rest in Your peace. Amen