This Is Not My Pain!

Those who are righteous… will not fear evil tidings; His heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. His heart is upheld, he will not fear, Until he looks with satisfaction upon his adversaries. Psalm 112: 6-8

Can I just be honest here? I have feared evil tidings. I have made doctors appointments and then cancelled them. I like denial. I don’t know which I think is more of an evil tiding – hearing a diagnosis or hearing a doctor say, I just don’t know. Twelve of the past 17 years, I have been in chronic pain. I had a freedom from it all for about five years and then it came back, new pain, new places in my body. I can’t even count how many trips to the doctor that makes and how many evil tidings I have heard or worried about hearing. But this isn’t God’s best for me.

My adversary is pain. What is yours? I know one day, I will look with satisfaction upon this adversary – when it no longer touches my body. But until then, I have a choice – am I going to spend my time fearing evil tidings or trusting in the Lord? I have discovered that fear is actually worse than the pain; fear even makes the pain worse. I can lock up against this pain, rail against it or speak words of faith over it and relax and feel relief.

Lately my confession has been, “this is not my pain, this is not my pain” over and over and over again until I feel that peace come. The truth is it isn’t my pain. It belongs to the devil who has been defeated on my behalf. When I can keep my focus on that truth, I find that fear tends to flee and often times, I feel a relaxing take place in my body which reduces the pain. What truth do you need to confess to overcome fear? What helps you let go of focusing on the symptoms, of fearing evil tidings? Apply the balm of Gilead, God’s word to your body, speak His truth to the fear and watch it flee.

Thank You, Father God for Your words of truth that set us free. Help us to discern the lies of the devil and be quick to reject them. Put us in remembrance of Your word when evil tidings come our way so that we can be steadfast, trusting in You. Thank You that the day is coming when we will look upon our adversaries with satisfaction. Amen.



  1. i love you and reading your devos. besides and it came to pass, lately i hang on to Isa. 41:13 the Lord MY God he holds my right hand saying to me fear not i will help you. it feels so personal. no matter what, He will help me, and you, and anybody that wantsHim. Hes so good.


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